I’m typically not much of the blogging type, but decided to give it a shot and see how it goes. The MOB process has been a very awakening experience for me thus far. I’ve done things and been through things emotionally that I otherwise wouldn’t have ever had to deal with. One can’t imagine how hard it is to say goodbye to those they love knowing that there’s a chance they may never get to see or be with them again.  It’s a scary realization that I have had to come to grips with recently and have had a very difficult time with until recently.

Events transpired that made me realize that no matter what, I’m here. I have a job to do and people are depending on me to do it because if I don’t bad things could happen.  If I fail at that, someone else may fall subject to the very fate I myself am most worried about.  So I made a decision.  I decided to do what I should have been doing all my life and something that was SO much easier then I had ever imagined.

I’m just going to let the little things go.. all of them.  When something unfortunate happens, I will take what may result and continue on, not letting anything in the past bother me or keep me from moving forward. That’s not to say I won’t learn lessons from previous errors. I will ALWAYS try to learn from mistakes made by myself and those around me. That’s the best way to grow, to observe those around you and figure out how to do things right by seeing where others have failed. That’s the whole purpose of history.  On top of that major decision, I realized that the only way I can make it through this deployment without worrying too much and becoming totally distracted is to remain positive and motivated. It’s like my dad has always said, “False motivation is the key.”  I used to laugh at him but with most things he has tried to teach me, he was right.

In the method of falsely motivating oneself, you actually begin to truly motivate yourself.  It no longer is motivation in a false sense because you believe it.  You are no longer having to convince yourself that you’re in a good mood and that you’re ready for tasks that you may or may not agree with, because you are naturally.  It become habitual and eventually part of your personality. That is something i have been working on and will continue to work on until it becomes as natural as waking up in the morning.

I am hoping to continue my personal and professional progress during the MOB process as well as the deployment. I have been working on a plan not only for the deployment but after it as well. This plan, once completed, should service me for the rest of my career.  That’s the big key to being successful. Making a plan that is flexible but definitive…and sticking to it.  I look forward to seeing what the future holds for me and how far I can take myself.  Until next time…